VANESSA DANIELLE LEE IS GOING TO LOSE THREE KG BY THE TIME CHRISTMAS COMES!
and i am promising this to myself.
so SOME people won't call me fatso and jiggle my fats all over the place.
you know who i'm talking about.
and its also for the good of my health. haha. yupp.
because...
i'm not going on a diet.
nope. because i'm already not eating healthy, and you want me to go on a diet. please la. i don't want to die any faster.
so i have decided to exercise! yes yes! its a better alternative isn't it? and i've already started! i'm good aren't i? i know i am!
i've already started swimming. everyone say whee! and then. i don't know. lets just stick to swimming first. and maybe my before-to-bed workout. hahas. the 30 crunches! how can i forget about that? i kinda lost track. when was the last time i did crunches? goodness me.
and i think i'm going running soon. good idea? maybe i should get rid of that painful ingrown toenail before i start running. now thats a good idea. don't you think? i'm going to trim my hair. because i got myself split ends! but i just called the salon. they are not free! roars!

i'm going back to IJ! oh God how i miss that place. and my juniors there too. and how we did all that crazy stuff we did. i'm getting old. my time has passed me by. i'm not in secondary school anymore. but i still miss the blue uniform. and how my mother would alter them because it was too long. my mother is mad. i just realised. a little slow of me isn't it? gosh.

i'm going swimming later! but someone has mock exam all. am i supposed to wait for you? i guess so. see? i'm so nice and so patient. and stop pinching me! cause they have become brusies!


there is no way you can love a person a 100%.
because you cannot trust a person the same way either.
and trust is the foundation of love.
there will always be something holding you back.
there will always be something about that person that will always hesitate.
you will always have doubts.
so, no.
you can't fully love a person with our entire being.
trust me. i know.
cause you're not God.
even our God is a jealous one.
what else is there to say about us mere mortals?
we have too much temptation around.

you said that you gave up.
i know.
you never tried anyway.
i know that too.
but me?
i haven't given up.
no.
not yet.